stiff...

Darn! why does emo songs always randomly played when u are feeling down?? wtf. I cant get myself to be in a mood for anything and this can be frustrating really... My feelings right now? M.I.X. I wanna be happy!!! I wanna be happy!!! I wanna be happy!!! omg.... i sounded like some 5 year old kid who insisted on having a candy. Arrgh! damn.

My sound track is giving me a hard time. BACKSTREET BOYS - inconsolable???? wtf!

Has anyone of u try acting like some insane soul walking around the house finding something u dun even know what it was? OR buried urself under the blanket crying for no reason? Throwing tantrum in ur own room not letting anyone else to see? Arrgh!

To filled up the time, i did something which i never thought i would have done it ever again for years. I PLAYED THE PIANO!!!!! My piano has been isolated at the corner of my house with dust covered most part of it. *pooofff* as i clean the dust away... i sneezed several times. Sigh... I played so badly that me, myself and i can't stand it anymore. Thinking back on how my parents send me to piano lessons when i'm young, how my few diff teachers taught me with so much patient. *guilty* I wished i didnt gave up on everything i do.... Does time machine really exist??

.... I shall go mourn again now ....